Experiencing the Void
Once upon a time I had spontaneous journeys to the Void of pre-existence and discovered the truth of the self.
So many years ago, a strange phenomenon would happen every night as I went to sleep. Once I was settled in bed, and my mind was drifting, I would find myself going through a kind of vortex at high speed to be deposited in the Void. Dark. Silent. Still. Solitary. There I would be for I don’t know how long. It seemed that I would be there until a thought came to me. The Void is a place without thought. Once I started thinking I would be out of the Void.
Being in the Void was a suspension of any action or thought. It was the most silent I have ever been in meditation or otherwise. It was an experience like no other.
My journeys to the Void were repeated nightly for about a week. Upon reflection of my being in the Void, it seemed to show me what the universe was before heaven and Earth were created. I think of it as the time before time, the time before anything at all became to be. Before Divinity became the Creator.
I got to know the heart of God within the Void. There is no time passing by in the Void. It is absolute stillness, solitude, darkness, and silence. There is no other thing or being to know, no experience to have, and no wonder to explore. All of that had yet to be created.
On the last night of these spontaneous journeys to the Void, an awareness of my solitude came. I had a longing similar to loneliness but not quite. One has to know companionship before one knows loneliness. This feeling was coupled with a sense of not even knowing if my existence was a reality. I had the essence of a desire to know if I truly existed.
Reflecting on that experience, I thought, how does that which exists in the Void know it exists? How do I know I live without a thing to witness or a thing to witness me? And then I thought that the consciousness in the Void did exist but could not have the experience of existence without an ‘other.’ Other anything. Just something other than itself. A molecule or a planet. An angel or a physical being. A galaxy or a tree. Without any other thing, there was no experience, nor even a reference to know themself. Therefore, without experiencing what is not the self, existence has no reality.
One of my teachers said that before everything was created, God was all alone. And then God said, “I want to see myself,” and burst into everything. So God became all the things of heaven and Earth. All things of Spirit, all the things of science, all the things that were, and all the things that will be were once the singular consciousness of what we think of as God, Divinity, or Source.
The All That Is is made up of shards that burst apart from that moment of creation by God or Divinity to know themself. Now they are like shards of a mirror that reflect God’s image to show Divinity who they are.
My experience in the Void was very much like the moments before that desire of God to see themself. Through those journeys, I have learned and still am learning the singular aspect of Divine consciousness and understanding the Divine will of knowing oneself.
One piece of wisdom I will share here is that every action I take, every thought I think, every moment of my life is God experiencing themself.
Of course, the same is true of you.
Image: The Starseed Oracle